I think that ADHD itself can sometimes cover up underlying depression. The constant search for stimulation in the ADHD mind can distract from feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of meaning. Even stress from the constant struggle with focus can be engaging. Stimulants, in my experience, took these things away and ultimately revealed a dee…
I think that ADHD itself can sometimes cover up underlying depression. The constant search for stimulation in the ADHD mind can distract from feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of meaning. Even stress from the constant struggle with focus can be engaging. Stimulants, in my experience, took these things away and ultimately revealed a deeper apathy. (If you started taking stimulants as an adult, it may have taken some time for this to develop, as the euphoriant effects faded.)
Still, I never really understood what I had been missing until I experienced actual happiness. Whether or not this is the case for you, it's clear you're unhappy now. I would suggest you try to address this directly. If you hate your job, make a career change to something that would give you a sense of purpose and provide more satisfying work. Reconnect with friends and family. Exercise, get some sunlight, improve your diet, and/or try meditating. Find a good therapist. Etc.
I think that ADHD itself can sometimes cover up underlying depression. The constant search for stimulation in the ADHD mind can distract from feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of meaning. Even stress from the constant struggle with focus can be engaging. Stimulants, in my experience, took these things away and ultimately revealed a deeper apathy. (If you started taking stimulants as an adult, it may have taken some time for this to develop, as the euphoriant effects faded.)
Still, I never really understood what I had been missing until I experienced actual happiness. Whether or not this is the case for you, it's clear you're unhappy now. I would suggest you try to address this directly. If you hate your job, make a career change to something that would give you a sense of purpose and provide more satisfying work. Reconnect with friends and family. Exercise, get some sunlight, improve your diet, and/or try meditating. Find a good therapist. Etc.