low doses, sure, if you're worst case scenario actually ADHD. Unfortunately, human's have an urge for an "edge" and chasing unrealistic standards or output, so we have lovely individuals like Elon Musk promoting literally permanently neurotoxic chemicals like modified amphetamines (MDMA/MDA) to keep their pipedream of a dystopian tech mo…
low doses, sure, if you're worst case scenario actually ADHD. Unfortunately, human's have an urge for an "edge" and chasing unrealistic standards or output, so we have lovely individuals like Elon Musk promoting literally permanently neurotoxic chemicals like modified amphetamines (MDMA/MDA) to keep their pipedream of a dystopian tech monopoly still running.
As I sit here crushing a 6 pack to come down from the crash of a 20mg XR vyvanse, I really feel for you and understand what youre saying, but we've corrupted what the meaning of "ADHD" so much for profit and now every kid that is quirky or doesn't like the forced curriculum gets loaded up with the hardest drugs known to man. Fun Fact: amphetamine is more neurotoxic than methamphetamine at a dose most people (and those prescribing the garbage ) consider therapeutic.
You sound pretty miserable (no offense intended, I just read your other comment about wanting to kill yourself). Does anything that I said about depression being confused with ADHD ring true to you?
I think that ADHD itself can sometimes cover up underlying depression. The constant search for stimulation in the ADHD mind can distract from feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of meaning. Even stress from the constant struggle with focus can be engaging. Stimulants, in my experience, took these things away and ultimately revealed a deeper apathy. (If you started taking stimulants as an adult, it may have taken some time for this to develop, as the euphoriant effects faded.)
Still, I never really understood what I had been missing until I experienced actual happiness. Whether or not this is the case for you, it's clear you're unhappy now. I would suggest you try to address this directly. If you hate your job, make a career change to something that would give you a sense of purpose and provide more satisfying work. Reconnect with friends and family. Exercise, get some sunlight, improve your diet, and/or try meditating. Find a good therapist. Etc.
low doses, sure, if you're worst case scenario actually ADHD. Unfortunately, human's have an urge for an "edge" and chasing unrealistic standards or output, so we have lovely individuals like Elon Musk promoting literally permanently neurotoxic chemicals like modified amphetamines (MDMA/MDA) to keep their pipedream of a dystopian tech monopoly still running.
As I sit here crushing a 6 pack to come down from the crash of a 20mg XR vyvanse, I really feel for you and understand what youre saying, but we've corrupted what the meaning of "ADHD" so much for profit and now every kid that is quirky or doesn't like the forced curriculum gets loaded up with the hardest drugs known to man. Fun Fact: amphetamine is more neurotoxic than methamphetamine at a dose most people (and those prescribing the garbage ) consider therapeutic.
You sound pretty miserable (no offense intended, I just read your other comment about wanting to kill yourself). Does anything that I said about depression being confused with ADHD ring true to you?
yes, and none of that rung true until I was overprescribed adderall and began searching for a legal alternative to legal speed
I think that ADHD itself can sometimes cover up underlying depression. The constant search for stimulation in the ADHD mind can distract from feelings of dissatisfaction or lack of meaning. Even stress from the constant struggle with focus can be engaging. Stimulants, in my experience, took these things away and ultimately revealed a deeper apathy. (If you started taking stimulants as an adult, it may have taken some time for this to develop, as the euphoriant effects faded.)
Still, I never really understood what I had been missing until I experienced actual happiness. Whether or not this is the case for you, it's clear you're unhappy now. I would suggest you try to address this directly. If you hate your job, make a career change to something that would give you a sense of purpose and provide more satisfying work. Reconnect with friends and family. Exercise, get some sunlight, improve your diet, and/or try meditating. Find a good therapist. Etc.